CAUTION: Moaning entry ahead
I know, it seems as if I only write here when I'm bitching and moaning, or whining and crying about something, but the busyiness of the group from hell (see two entries down) has been keeping me from taking any moment of spare joy and using it to update this blog.
Why do I feel like everyone around me is distancing themselves from me? Friends and family alike - all have taken from me what they needed and are slowly backing away. My brother and sister both hardly speak to me, and if they do it's because they need or want something. I feel really used by them right now, and I don't know how to tell them that without them getting their backs up. My brother owes me a serious amount of money I lent him last year and I've yet to see a dime of it. Weekly promises are made to begin repayment, but five months later I'm still out over 4K. My sister came home from university for spring break and apart from visiting grandma in the hospital I've not seen her at all. I miss them, and I miss spending time with them. I know I'm a lot older than they are and that it may not be "cool" to hang out with me, but it doesn't lessen the hurt.
I also feel like one of my good friends is slipping away from me as well. Our communication the past couple of weeks has been much less frequent than in the past, and it seems as if he's been spoiling for a fight nearly every time we talk. I don't know what's going on there and I don't know how to fix it. I want things to return to normal but don't want to be clingy and whine to him about how we don't talk as often as I'm sure that'd have the opposite of the desired effect.
Ugh. Feeling quite low at the moment.
*UPDATE* 22 March 07
My sis came by last night to hang out and watch TV. She laid her man troubles on me and we had fun chatting and watching TV 'til midnight. So I feel a little better today.
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3/21/2007 04:50:00 PM
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The gods tempt people for which they are most weak. Artificial Intelligence will create desire in people's minds for the following sins:::
1. Alcohol
2. Drugs
3. Preditory "earning"
4. Homosexuality
5. Gambling
6. Something for nothing/irresponsibility (xtianity)
7. Polygamy/superiority over women/misogyny (Islam)
Much like the other prophets Mohhamed (polygamy/superiority over women/misogyny) and Jesus (forgiveness/savior), the gods use me for temptation as well. In today's modern society they feel people are most weak for popular culture/sensationalism, and the clues date back to WorldWarII and Unit731:TSUSHOGO.
It has been discussed that, similar to the Matrix concept, the gods will offer a REAL "Second Coming of Christ", while the "fake" Second Coming will come at the end and follow New Testiment scripture and their xtian positioning. I may be that real Second Coming.
What I teach is the god's true way. It is what is expected of people, and only those who follow this truth will be eligible to ascend into heaven as children in a future life. They offered this event because the masses have just enough time to work on and fix their relationship with the gods and ascend, to move and grow past Planet Earth, before the obligatory xtian "consolation prize" of "1000 years with Jesus on Earth" begins.
Your job as a future mother is to learn the god's ways and to help your child understand despite the negative reinforcement and conditioning of today's society. Without consciousous parents the child will have no hope, and may even exaserbate their disfavor by becoming corrupted in today's environment.
Your ultimate goal is to fix your relationship wiith the gods and move on. You don't want to be comfortable here, and the changes in Western society in the last 100 years has achieved just that.
1000 years with Jesus is the consolation prize. Don't be deceived into thinking that is the goal.
The Prince of Darkness, battling the gods over the souls of the Damned.
It is the gods who have created this environment and led people into Damnation with temptation. The god's positioning proves they work to prevent people's understanding.
How often is xtian dogma wrong? Expect it is about the Lucifer issue as well.
The fallen god, fighting for justice for the disfavored, banished to Earth as the fallen angel?
I believe much as the Noah's Flood event, the end of the world will be initiated by revelry among the people. Revelry will be positioned to be sanctioned by the gods and led for "1000 years with Jesus on Earth".
In light of modern developments this can entail many pleasures:::Medicine "cures" aging, the "manufacture" of incredible beauty via cloning as sex slaves, free (synthetic) cocaine, etc.
Somewhere during the 1000 years the party will start to "die off", literally. Only those who maintain chaste, pure lifestyles will survive the 1000 years. They will be the candidates used to (re)colonize (the next) Planet Earth, condemned to relive the misery experienced by the peasantry during Planet Earth's history.
If this concept of Lucifer is true another role of this individual may be to initiate disfavor and temptation among this new population, the proverbial "apple" of this Garden of Eden. A crucial element in the history of any planet, he begins the process of deterioration and decay that leads civilizations to where Planet Earth remains today.
Only children go to heaven. By the time you hit puberty it is too late. This is charecteristic of the gods:::Once you realize what you have lost it is too late.
Now you are faced with a lifetime to work to prepare for your next chance. Too many will waste this time, getting stoned, "Hiking!", working, etc.
The gods destroyed my childhood, my health and my life so they could position and sell this to a global audience.
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